Avant garde

Greetings everybody in the internet world!

This is the first time ever for me to blog and I wish everybody can enjoy it and benefit from it. :)

Here, in this blog will be my daily rant and rave, joys and anguish where I guess all adolescents or delinquents can relate to.

Being a teenage is really a traumatic phase of life!

Just imagine how fast and spontaneous life hit us.

Being in my 17, it is inevitable for me to commit a very vital decision in one's life, that is to choose my major and where to continue my studies.

All these years, I stayed in the same school since kindergarten (it's about 15 years, yes it is like my second house) and I never have to worried about moving or transferring to any school because my school teaches up to high school levels.

The topics in classroom changes. I still remembered how my classmates and I used to talked about the cartoons that played weekly in Sundays, and suddenly we are in our junior high school (or secondary school) talking about facebook, gadgets, café and cinema movies.

Now everybody seems to involuntarily discuss about colleges and campuses.

Questions like

"Hey, what field will you decide to take for your university major?"

"Where are you deciding to go? Australia, Singapore, UK or US?"

"Have you received your SAT, TOEFL or IELTS scores?"

are suddenly ubiquitous.

For me myself, I would describe my journey in this phase as thrilling, exciting yet terrifying!

I am surely going to get my bachelor degree in the US.

I really am looking forward to studying in NY or Boston!

For the university, I will keep it undisclosed in the mean time. :p

The biggest challenge for me is that I don't have any acquaintance there. I will be alone, I will be starting a new game in my life, writing a new page in my book and facing a world completely different from where I was raised.

I will have to leave my family alone, to stay and to mingle with people all over the world there.

Sometimes I am anxious about will I be forlorn or will I have lots of friends.

Can I survive in the GPA race or will I be trampling behind?

However, staying in Medan (I haven't mentioned it, I live in Medan, North Sumatra, Indonesia) is also pointless for me.

Honestly, everything here has given me bad memories and bitterness. Everywhere I go, woosh, all I can get are flashbacks and reminiscences.

I had had failed in relationships, and friendships.

There's like nobody in this life that I can truly trust. Today somebody could be very warm to you, cared so much about you and the very next day, guess what, they don't even have their time for you anymore.

All in all, I just believe that time is a river. Anything else is just ornament, those happy things and sad things. We just have to get over it. One day we are at the top of the wheel, and who knows the next day we are at the nadir.

Focus on what really matters, don't impress people cause if people really like you, you don't have to make them like you.

In the end, what we achieve for ourselves count, not what we achieve for others.

I guess I have to end my first post here as it is too boring and long to read. hehehe

Thank you for those who have read, you guys are awesome people!

Carpe diem

---Gio